Say goodnight to the bad guys

For the past 3 years I have been completely dependent on the pharmaceutical drug called Seroquel, which i take for sleep. I started taking 50mg’s a night one hour prior of when I wanted to sleep. Slowly over time my body became adjusted to this dose, and my body needed more to be able to fall asleep. My dose would increase by 50mg every trip that I made to this doctor, and each time the new, increased dose would put me in a more heavy tranquil state which I found enjoyable. As the doses increased, the amount of alcohol I was drinking that night would also increase, giving me a hazy effect for that evening which was shown in my speech, and my actions. After a few months, my dose went from 50mg to 800mg each night just to be able to sleep. While taking the 800mg dose mixed with the alcohol I began to start sleep walking. During these episodes my speech would be completely slurred to the point where not a single word could be made out. I would also wander around the house, stopping at different items in the house, like the refrigerator and sink and just stand there, not using the items, just staring at them for sometimes hours. There have been instances where I have left the stove on high all night with a towel besides the hot burner. These events were told to me the next day by my roommates, with me being clueless, not remembering a single event. 3 weeks ago, against the doctor’s orders, I choose to end the 3 year long ordeal of me depending on a drug just to be able to sleep and I started to lower my dose. I went from 800mg a night to 750mg the next night, then 700mg to 650mg and so on. Now at this point I am taking only 80mg a night, and am able to sleep without incidences of me waking up during the night, or any sleepwalking. My goal is to be completely off the drug, and be free of my dependency to a sleep aid.